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Love your God with all your
heart-soul-mind-strength
Love your neighbors as yourself

Today was a hard day for me.
7 hours of classes....eek.
As I was walking to class, I asked God,
"What should I do here on campus?"
And all He answered me was, "Be my messenger."
"I understand, but how can I
use my calling to spread Your Gospel?"
Then He didn't say anything.

After 7 hours of craziness,
I watched 4 episodes of Simpsons.
I just wanted to relax.
I didn't turn to the Lord during that hour of free time.
Anyhow, I wanted to go to IV Large Group.
Before that I was over the phone with Annie,
hoping to figure out the song list in a loud environment.
It was quite frustrating on both sides.
Ended that call, felt really weird and all.
Finally plugged in my headphone and
listened to Came To My Rescue on my way to IV.

I just wanted to worship Him, so I did.
Lifted up my hands, couldn't even sing.
He is just so good at taking my burden away.
Tearing up so many times during worship.

This song always brings tears to my eyes.
It's sung in 4 different languages:
I love You, Love You, Love You, My Lord Jesus
I love You, Love You, Love You, Jesus
我愛祢, 我愛祢, 愛祢, 我主耶穌
我愛祢, 我愛祢, 愛祢, 耶穌
Te amo, Te amo, Te amo, Mi Cristo Jesus
Te amo, Te amo, Te amo, Jesus
Saranghaeyo, Saranghaeyo, Saranghaeyo, Mon Cho Jesu
Saranghaeyo, Saranghaeyo, Saranghaeyo, Jesu

And the Lord gave me the word LOVE.
He reminded me WHY we're doing what we're doing
and what attitude we should have for the conference.
Music is one thing, but Love is everything.
I'd give up playing and singing for the Lord
if there is no Love.
God reminded me of what Jack said to the cores
before we headed to Las Vegas.
And tears started to well up in my eyes again.

And then after the sharing, IV did the Lifehouse skit.
Tears welled up again.

And the song Child of God hit right into my heart.
It such a beautiful song. I want to sing it at Impact.
I couldn't stop crying before Him and tell Him I
'm sorry that I haven't been loving Him back a lot today
especially today was really crazy academic wise.

I went down to have someone pray for me.
This guy's real cool and I told him about what I felt
and through his prayer the Lord gave me
peace and joy and more strength. And, of course, Love.

And then I prayed for that cool guy.
He told me that he's still struggling with
many things in the world: hatred and lust mainly.
I shared with him how the Lord delivered me from
the chain of lust back in November,
so I prayed for this guy who wants to
serve the Lord with guitar playing and praying for people.
Lord I pray for spirit of boldness and confidence
to fall upon my brother right now.
I ask that You would protect him from attacks
and temptations and lead him from the wilderness
into the land of milk and honey.

Just one more day until the conference.
We gotta pray for love, peeps.
At least that's what the Lord put in my heart tonight.

And now I will show you the
most excellent way.
-1 Cor 12:31-

Go check out that scripture.
Love HAS TO BE the foundation of our actions.
Let's serve because of love.
I don't care about music as much as I care about love.
Now I understand why. He answered me.

Father You're all I need
My soul sufficiency.

Johnny

ps. I remembered why I do what I do. I love UCSD.