blind eyes open
-1 Corinthians 6:19~20-

Lord once again You showed me how fragile and broken we are.

I've got this good friend who talked to me about her broken heart and throughout the IM convo I prayed to God that He would intervene what is hurting her right then. God comforts and heals through many ways. And after the convo she really hope to have a closer relationship with her Creator who has unfailing love for her. If you're reading this, I want you to know that God's ready to go deeper with you whenever. You holds the key to open up that door before you. I totally encourage you to do so because I've opened my door and I entered into a world of miracles. All you gotta do is to leave stuff behind and look forward. And let me tell you, when you start doing that your life will be changed radically. And maybe that guy will realize that what he did was unacceptable and what he needs is the same love that you've been looking for--from his Creator and Lover of eternity. I believe that God will heal him COMPLETELY when it's time and he will realize that God's the one in control, not him. It's hard to pray for him at your position, but I still encourage you to do so--to pray for his turning back to God and surrender all he is--everything that he is going through, good or bad--to Jesus Christ.

And I totally encourage you to pray with your friend at the heart to heart time.

Prayers rumble the heavens. And when the heavens rumble, the earth would quake.

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Tomorrow night Passion Church SD is having a prayer meeting about the planning of a 24/7 prayer house on the campus of UC San Diego. Please keep this event in your prayers, dear world-changers.

Cuz you know, prayers SHAKE and BAKE, baby!

It's a song written by Jon Foreman, the lead singer/guitarist of Switchfoot. His solo EP album released today. Pretty sweet.

Thanks Joy for your prayer and verses. Yeah totally my spirit is so willing but my flesh is not lead by the spirit at this moment.

He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak. - Isaiah 40:29

Oh Spirit how I yearn for You.

Now I just pray what Paul prays for those at Philippi:

Lord, I pray that my love may abound more and more in knowledge and depth of insight, so that I may be able to discern what is best and may be pure and blameless until the day of Christ, filled with the fruit of rightecousness that comes through Jesus Christ--to the glory and praise of You, my God.

Philippians 1:9-11

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What do You see when I don't see
What do You know when I don't know
If anything I knew was real

With those eyes, unfailing eyes
Do you see my broken side
Or do you see in me what's beautiful?

So come and walk in the room
Take this broken piece of clay
And turn it into something beautiful

On my knees I still stay
I know there is no better way
To come hear that I'm beautiful
To You

I'm Beautiful To You by Ben Woodward

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Thank You for saying that I am beautiful.
I love You.

That's how I felt when I was dreaming this past morning (Tuesday).
God gave me a dream.
I was shocked, scared, and really sad.

But He answered my yearning for an encounter with Him in dreams.
Almost every night for the past couple months I asked God to give me dreams that I would not be able to forget because I'm not very good at remembering what I've dreamt about.

Yet everything's possible. He did it.

Thank You my God. You are amazing.

Thank You for this special and unforgettable experience. I love You.

Johnny

---If you want to know about the detail, talk to me!

It was certainly a day that I will never forget.
Holy Spirit was with me in such a way that I just cannot resist bobbing back and forth. Here's kinda what happened this morning (Nov 10).

I've been really looking forward to this conference about releasing the realm of supernatural on college campuses all over the United States. And I totally believe that God has a huge heart for college students and these will be the key people in the years to come.

So in the morning session, I was totally enjoying the presence of the Lord and just singing it, dancing it, shouting it, just once again come back to Jesus. And when Jaeson was up there talking about repentence, I immediately thought about many things that I've paid more attention to than God Himself. So I, once for all, proclaimed that those spirits that do not please Him leave my body and my life right then. And I really felt a transformation inside of me.

Furthurmore, Jaeson also talked about "honouring" our spiritual fathers and mothers, so immediately I realized that I haven't been honouring that they are the ones who nourished me for the past three and half years. I would not be who I am right now without Jack and Annie. Lord I proclaim that all believers would receive whatever their spiritual parents have, because there is a generation blessing that has been passing on from parents to children.

And then late morning we learned some steps of going out and just pray for people. Pretty practical steps; really awesome.

After a short lunch, Banning started to talk about John 9 and Matt 5:14-16---the fact that there is NO COMPETITION between LIGHT and DARKNESS. There is NO COMPETITION. Because here Jesus says in John 9:5 -- "While I am in the world, I am the light of the world." Also Jesus says in Matt 5:14 - 16 -- "You are the light of the world."
This is a FACT. Not something that we can debate over. No. Because of one easy, universal fact -- there is no DARKNESS that can OUTDARK the LIGHT. As soon as the light appears, darkness HAS TO LEAVE. No exception. ALL darknesses leave when lights appear. I was literally in awe of this simple fact. You can't get more simpler than this. The only reason that there is still darkness is not that we don't have the light, it is that many believers are HIDING their given light. The only take off the basket that covers the light off while they go to church, and put it back on after church. That is not what God's asking here in John 9 and Matt 5. We ARE the light. And when we shine, darkness cannot resist. There's no way. woah. Yeah Holy Spirit. Light is ALWAYS superior. And darkness does not have an option (not one) when light comes. Once again, the battle is not between light and darkness(why?....explained above), it is about those believers who are hiding the lights.

Over all, we NEED to GO PUBLIC. Period. And furthermore realize that we actually DO NOT FIT IN AT ALL.

Speak truth. In love. Backed by power. -- We need to partner up with the Holy Spirit to release the realm of supernatural, to let our lights shine.

So here comes the crazy 6 hours of my entire life.
At 4pm, we were broken up into schools, so I partnered up with 2 people from UCSD -- Brian and Hatty. They were totally awesome!
So we exchanged some stuff we wrote down before we depart for campus invasion. I saw a lady with short, dark hair with something on her head, and Hatty saw red shirt.
However we didn't know where to start, so we decided to head over to the Bruin statue (for we were at UCLA). So at that plaza was this lady, in her 40s, talking on the phone--short, black hair, with sunglasses on her head, and red shirt! We were like, wha the...swwweeeet. So as we were waiting for her to finish her call, God gave me the word "sister". Anyhow, we asked her whether she would like some prayers, she said okay (she's a believer herself, praise God!) She asked us to pray for her and her husband's health conditions--to stay healthy. Moreover she asked us to pray for her husband’s godmother who had breast cancer, and successfully the surgery went well and she’s recovering right now. I also asked her whether she has an ear or eye problem for I wrote them down, and she told us that her right eyes have been twitching for the past 3 weeks(and guess what, so was my right eye!) Before we prayed for her, I asked her, “do you happen to have a sister?” She said, “no.” So I was depressed for a second, then she said, “actually, I do.” I was like…what? A sister popped out from nowhere in a second? So she shared with us that she hasn’t been talking with her sister Amy for a long time. God You are amazing! So we prayed for the things, and she got tears in her eyes.
Anyhow, that was the first person we encountered. Jesus, I thank You for showing up. Holy Spirit, thanks for the partnership =)

So we left her and kept walking aimlessly, didn’t know where God was leading us. So I had a feeling that I should pray for this old lady sitting there reading. I felt a strong spirit of rejection behind her after being rejected in the face. Ouch. Anyhow, we still prayed for her salvation because we saw her wearing a necklace of star of David. God, in the end time, wants to use the gentiles to bless the Jewish people.

So we kept on walking, and I felt really hungry, especially when I saw the word “pizza” on my list. So I was like “we probably need to go to a domino’s or a pizza hut.” So we kept on walking and we saw a pizzeria! As we were outside looking for people that we would pray for, this random started talking to us. So for an hour we stood in front of the pizzeria, just talking. His name is Benny and he has been on the streets for a while I guess. When I started to ask about his past and what he has been doing, he always switches the topic by talking about theology. He knows a lot about the Word, yet God started to stir my heart, telling me about who he is—being abandoned and abused by his folks back in Illinois, and has been smoking, drinking, and committing suicide many times. And then whenever we tried to ask him any question, he ALWAYS replied with either a story in the Bible or something to do with Christianity. We three were all praying for him inside as we shared even more with him. Out of nowhere, tears just filled my eyes and I felt the compassion that God has for Benny because he has been studying the Word so much that he does not understand nor experience the Holy Spirit. He needed to forgive his past, his family, and also himself. Then boom! I suddenly felt the presence of God manifesting within me and I started to talk as if I were God! I was like….what? Is that me who is talking? Anyhow I kept on tell him to really forgive, and he is the one who has to make the choice and take the initiative. I felt the heart of God and I saw Hatty wiping her eyes. I couldn’t stop bobbing back and forth like crazy because I felt that some of the spirit that was on him came upon me and I started to feel very uncomfortable. Then I asked Brian to pray for me and then I called Sarah and her whole car—Tiffa, Alice, Monay, and Jasmine—to pray for me, and also I asked MQ and Joshua to pray for me also. Then I felt a lot better, and I started to share with him again and again because I really believed that God wanted to change Benny’s heart. Anyhow he joined us for the evening session and was really touched by the worship and the message. Afterwards I gave him my contact information and gave him the $10 left in my wallet. That was something supernatural that I didn’t even expect.

And I realized that this supernatural encounter happened after my 40-day encounter with God starting Oct 1st! (The conference was on Nov. 11)
Something crazy. God You totally have great timing. I love You.

Thank You for giving me this chance to be baptized and bound in love with You wholly.

I am Yours now. Forevermore. I love You.

Johnny

June 27-29
Jesus Culture conference @ Orange County was truly mind-blowing.
During that conference we broke into groups and went out to the
streets and just simply pray for people and prophesy over them(it's
called City Invasion)! We saw people got healed with just one prayer,
and through signs and wonders, God surely revealed Himself to us!

July 7
From 10am to 10pm, Impact was doing a day of fasting and prayer @ our
church with THE CALL Nashville since we weren't able to be @ Nashville
with over 70,000 people fasting and praying for the land of America. I
suppose y'all have heard of TheCall; it's on the march right now and
its next stop will be @ Las Vegas on Oct, 20th. Go check out their
website @ thecall.com.

July 27-28
About 12 of us from Impact went to a church in Vegas to connect with
them and to fire them up. We took the youths from that church out for
City Invasion also, and the malls in Las Vegas were pretty sweet and
awesome. And I'm really sure that Las Vegas is one of the cities that
needs to be turned upside down by God the most after this mission
trip.

August 1-3
8 of us from Impact went up to Redding, CA to attend the Jesus Culture
Conference, the real deal. The one in OC was just an regional one.
This conference was way more intensive and incredible than the one in
OC. Here's one awesome testimony: This guy, about 20, drove all the
way from Minnesota just to come to this conference. Before City
Invasion, he told himself that he MUST pray for someone to be healed.
So during City Invasion, he saw this guy with bands around his hands,
and he asked him whether he could pray for him, and that guy he met
said okay. He found out that the guy had a missing knuckle on one of
his hands and his hand hurts and couldn't move at all. So he started
to pray, and after a while, he asked him, "How do you feel?" And that
guy told him that the pain was gone but his hand still couldn't move.
So he said to God, "THIS IS NOT ENOUGH!!" and started to pray for that
guy again. And after a while, he asked him the same question again,
and he could move his hands! But there is still a missing knuckle. So
he said to God again, "GOD, THIS IS NOT RIGHT!!" and prayed for him
again, and after the third prayer, that guy's knuckle grew back! For
real, it GREW BACK!!! And the guy who got healed came to the
conference, saying, "Jesus is real!!". Ya. That's how crazy the
conference was. Awesome all the way.

August 5 - August 25
Starting this day, Impact started a 21-day Prayer and Fasting. What we
do is simply come before Jesus and just be quiet and gaze upon His
beauty and have an intimate relationship with Him for 2 hours every
day until August 25th. I'm loving it, God just speaks to me everyday
when I simply come to Him and be still.

August 23-26 (Last Thursday - Sunday)
This summer camp was heavenly. Not only everyone had loads of fun from
playing games, attending art/music/dance/fashion/Tae Kwon Do workshops
and perform their talents, singing their guts out to Jesus during
worship with Radical Jam(Impact's worship band), but also everyone
felt Jesus. On the last night, Holy Spirit just rained down from
heaven and everyone was filled by it, and many young people were taken
up to heaven and to hell by God(I'm not making this up), many were
crying, some were laughing(I was one of them), and some were flying!
Many also got healed with just one prayer! I started to play keyboard
at around 7:30pm and then after worship my left hand's muscles started
to sore and ache, and then our speaker asked whether people needed
healing so I raised my hand(while the other hand was still on the
keys), so I kept on playing while people laid hands on me and prayed
for my healing, and after the prayer my soreness and pain on my left
hand was completely GONE! woah. What was even more exciting was that
during the time when everyone was filled by the spirit and I was still
playing on the keyboard singing "Let it Rain" over and over, the pain
on my left hand came back and my right wrist started to hurt when I
put pressure on it. I didn't stop playing, rather I asked God, "Jesus,
if You're enjoying my worship, please do not let it stop simply
because of the aching. And right then the pain in both of my hands
were GONE once again and I was laughing like crazy!! God is so
good!!!! It was a powerful night and Jesus just visited us in such an
intimate way that we could not resist. And what was even amazing was
that August 25 was the final day for our 21-day fasting and prayer and
God just poured out His heart for us because we've been praying for 3
weeks straight! 2 hours every day!

So that's the short version of my life since June 21st. And I've been
filming testimony after testimony of people at Impact because every
week there's something new happenning. Impact will release this DVD in a week and half on the 11th, the day that Impact will celebrate its 2nd year birthday!

Time for my brain to rest after some baminton action and a nice cool shower.

Thanks G, Love Ya
me

Woah. Just realized that I did not publish this blog.
Today's January 23rd. lol.
But there ya go. It's about Jesus Culture Redding.

August 1 - 3
Jesus Culture : Redding

August 1st
After the Kingdom-smashing regional conference in Orange County, I went up to the Real Deal in Redding. As soon as Lou Engle open his mouth and speak, my upper body was moving back and forth to his words. He is definitely a man of integrity and consistantcy and humbleness. Moreover, everyone went to the front to walk under this tapestry of different conferences that Lou's wife has made to receive anointing. It was only the first night and God's fire was consuming the convention center.

August 2nd
Morning
We went out for City Invasion. We went to this plaza which they called "mall", and we found out that there was almost no one in that plaza, at least not many who are disabled or sick. Before hand I wrote down some signs, but unfortunately I didn't even pray for ANYONE during that invasion period. I felt really bad and sad because I knew that more people missed out a chance to experience God's Kingdom because I chicken'd out. Actually I did not chicken's out, but many rejections kinda defeated me even though I knew that I should've become stronger after rejections.

Afternoon
This is very unfortunate. I basically missed out a workshop because I was just so out of it and fell asleep all the way through. Enoch poured some water down my back and that woke me up....lol

Night
Banning, the youth pastor of Jesus Culture, shared once again about 1 Samuel 14 about how Jonathan knows what is in his heart and what his dream is. He talks about his experience of whale-watching and becoming an astronaut. "You have to allow yourself to dream...I your dream isn't impossible, then it is not from God.

Are we ready?.....na, don't even start with that one.
Am I ready?
How "ready" should I feel? I do not know. But just like what Jack said, "do you have a heart for the people there in Vegas? do you love them?"

It's nothing easy. How on earth am I supposed to love some people whom the names I don't even know?

Dear Heavenly Father, please grant me the strength to love and accept instead of to hate and reject.
Grant me Your love cause I don't think my love can go THAT far.
Show me how to love and grant me visions when I go to Vegas.
Jesus, please let me love them like You love me.

I need you. now. a breakthrough.

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By the way, The Simpsons Movie is out !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I'm so excited! D'oh!

June was the crazieset month for me -- Graduation, Grand Canyon Skywalk, An awesome Japanese meal, See Friends, Back to the Embrace, Receiving Visions, Understanding My Goal of Position in the Kingdom, Filled by the Spirit, Prayed by Strangers, Prayed for Strangers, Prophesy over Strangers, Piano Playing, Bass Slapping, and A Hoarse Throat that Simply Does Not Function Like A Throat.

Gravity is now dragging my eyelids but I could not let gravity prevail. I do not like to lose. Who does anyways?

Unfortunately, gravity won. Men cannot prevail gravity when he is exausted thoroughly.

I've never felt so lost before.
I had a purpose when I was at NMH. I knew what I was going after and accomplishing.
But not now.
Like what Jack said to me, "What is your calling? What spiritual gifts do you wish to receive?"
and "What's your purpose of going to conferences? What do you wish to get from it?"
I really do not know why I wish to go to THE CALL, but I've always had an urge to go.
I need to know WHY I wish to go before I even make a move. And I will keep on praying to God and listen. That's what I lack. The ability to stop and listen.

time to write more songs!

Give me some breakthrough, Jesus!