The Way to Freedom - Part 2

July 7 Morning - The morning session was so sweet. I had my good friend Eric Yun to play guitar and sing with me and also Jacob playing the djembe for the 3rd morning in a row. The presence of the Lord was so thick and so sweet that the speaker, Tony Kim, only spoke for probably 15 minutes, and the rest of the morning was all Father, Jesus, and the Holy Spirit. Many saw visions of heaven and Jesus showed them a glimpse of heaven. God once again reminded me the visions of the musical instruments in heaven, and He wanted me to keep dreaming with Him and bringing heaven's melody down to earth. It was so sweet. God was so sweet yet demanding because He is jealous for us. He's gotta have it all.

July 7 Evening - Throughout this week @ ReGen, I really really wanted to encounter God in a new way and to shake off all the junk and cloth myself with Jesus. Moreover, leading all these worship sets has really put me in a place of wanting more of His Spirit because I could not give out what I do not have. After the morning session, I took a good nap in preparation of tonight's time of worship and praise. I wanted to see Jesus. I wanted to be hungry for Him. I asked the Lord to expand my hunger for more and more of Him. I wanted a fresh touch from heaven.

As soon as the band started to play, tears flowed out from my eyes for the first time during this conference. I wanted more. I was not satisfied. I wanted Jesus. I desired more of His presence and His Spirit. During the worship time, God's presence fell like a huge and thick blanket covering the entire room, and I saw in a vision that I was running a race with my friends on a race track, and instead of competing with each other, we were supporting each other and cheering each other on to finish this good race of faith. I also saw myself riding a big wave on a surfboard.

After worship, I went up to Kenny to give him our CDs, and I also asked him to pray for me. He started to pray that I would receive songs from heaven and that the "best worship songs come from worship". And the Lord didn't stop there. He started to give Kenny words to speak over me. So Kenny started to tell me that God wanted to tell me that I am not alone, but I would feel lonely many times. I could not stop tearing up as he kept on telling me what God wanted me to hear. He started to speak identity into me, telling me that I am so worthy, I am so loved, and that it's not about me leading people and playing keys, but simply because I am a SON. I never knew that I still struggle with my true identity in Christ until God revealed it to me through Kenny. He also told me that I would be very critical of myself and I would beat myself down because throughout my life I received a lot of negativity from my family members, and I did not want to be a disappointment to those who love me. Kenny also told me to remember two things: 1) Submit under authority and 2) Obeying God's voice and that I shouldn't be afraid of those in authority, and also of obeying to God's voice.

Kenny sharing on Living in His Presence @ ReGen 2K11.

Kenny told me to write on the left side of a paper a list of lies that I believe and ask God to reveal the lies. And on the right hand side, the truth from God of who I truly am. I needed to ask God to reveal who I truly am and what He thinks about me. I thought the prayer time was almost over and I was ready to go home and write these all out, but it was far from it.

Kenny then started to tell me about my desire of wanting to find my wife. He told me that I shouldn't pursue her but rather I should pursue God and God alone, because as I draw closer to God and she draws closer to God, we will eventually meet each other IN JESUS. This was such a confirmation of the decision I made just the night before (as mentioned in Part 1) and my heart was rejoicing because God has a plan for me, and all I need to do is to follow him and pray for my wife to encounter more of Him.

And that was only the beginning of a breakthrough. Kenny started to tell me that I am loved, worthy, and accepted. And that I am NOT UNWORTHY. I started to cry out loud, with my head buried in his shoulder.

After a minute or two I started to cough. And as I was coughing, Kenny began to declare over me victory and that right now God's love is filling me up and pushing out of my body all the things that do not belong to Him, and that was the reason I started to cough. After a minute, the coughing turned into deep-burping that was much like my encounter during prayer time with Auntie Sharon; however, this time was even more intense because I actually puked out some type of liquid three times over the duration of deliverance. There are times when I hear voices to tell me to stop puking, but Kenny kept saying that God is not done with me yet and He wants to completely set me free. My mind knew that was and attack from the enemy, so I made a decision and proclaimed it within that I would not leave this room without being completely set free, and let God's will be done.

I felt so free and light afterwards. My mind was still in complete shock but I knew that my spirit man was set free. Kenny told me that what came out of me was all these loneliness, unworthiness, false humility, and SEVEN GENERATIONS of IDOL WORSHIP in my family. I am the only son of the oldest son (my dad) in the household, thus all the generation blessings and curses are now passed down upon me, and God was uprooting the curses caused by my ancestors worshipping idols. Not only that, He took all the fear and the spirits mentioned before away from me. I laid on the floor in fetal position for a good ten minutes, letting my body to recover and my spirit to abide in God.

Thoughts and Reflection:
Even though I was set free, now I am in a completely new season of letting my mindset to be transformed. I need to understand firmly who I TRULY AM in Christ and I need to break out of all the old mindsets that were built up when I was in bondage but are now surfaced after deliverance. The journey has just begun, and I am ready to step in and climb up to another level with the Lord. I need Jesus so much more now because every step I take I realize that I need to leave behind blessings to generations to come. The decisions I make will affect my future children and their children, and God took me through a burning fire to purge me from curses, sins, so that I could come out PURE and BLAMELESS. I don't know what He has in store for me, but I believe His plans for me are to prosper me and not to harm me, plans to give me hope and a future.

That's pretty much it. The journey has just begun. As someone who leads worship, I see the importance to know exactly who I am in Christ and that I AM WORTHY, LOVED, and ACCEPTED no matter what I DO or DON'T DO. I still need to chew on it and swallow it and chew on it over and over again until it becomes a PART of ME.

I trust in You, my God, I trust in You.

johnny